I’m Not Enough Unless I’m Working is about my relationship with work and overworking myself. While I was writing on the wall, and while I was figuring out how to go about this project, I had three things on my mind: being raised in an family where I was expected to work hard, working in a warehouse where I feel overworked and uncared for, and being raised in a society and environment where working is almost necessary for survival. This was not a cry for help or a way to convince myself the opposite, but more of an expression of the pressure I put on myself and a way to address it and confront it. 

I turn the phrase I keep writing into a sort of mantra through the act of repetition. My intentions before the performance were to cover multiple walls with text over the course of about two hours. I ended up covering one wall in about an hour and a half, and during that time became so tired that I wanted to have a nap, so I ended up taking one on the floor at the end of one wall. While I feel that it would have been a reassuring ending to end the performance with me sleeping, I feel that is too optimistic to reflect how I feel about this mindset. While I was laying there sleeping, I felt guilty for stopping my task and my work. I felt this so strongly that I started to wake up and decided to keep writing and finish the job. While I continued to work, I realized that this mantra I had been repeating had written itself fully in my brain. This was not a new thought, but through the almost two hours of writing it, it had become almost a reality.